Everyone messes up. I
make a mistake or mess-up with Carter on a weekly if not daily basis. My most recent mess-up was clipping his nails. We were getting ready to leave for the day
and I noticed his fingernails were really long.
I hate it when he claws himself during the day so I decided to clip his
nails.
Mind you I have only clipped Carter’s nails once
before. I accidentally clipped one nail
too short, Carter cried, and I decided I wouldn’t clip them again. I either filed his nails or had Ty clip
them. I knew I didn’t have time to file
his nails, so I decided to very carefully clip them.
He was in the jumparoo so I had easy access to his
hands. I grabbed the first hand and
started clipping. When I got to the
second hand I was so relieved and thought in my head, thank goodness I haven’t
nicked him yet. I got to his thumb on
his right hand, the last finger to clip.
That’s when it happened.
I clipped the nail and felt very successful, I did it, I’m
done! I looked at Carter’s face and it
was bright red and his lips were drawn down into a frown. He began to wail and that’s when I saw blood
bead up and roll along the tip of his finger.
I panicked, did my best to not cry along with him, grabbed him out of
the jumparoo and immediately popped his thumb into my mouth and sucked it. Why? I
have no idea. I guess I thought it would
help with the pain? Doesn’t make much
sense thinking back on it, but I was desperate.
My poor baby's thumb. |
What happened next?
My momma worry kicked in. By the
time I got to daycare the next day I was convinced it was infected. Welcome to the life of a mom, trying to do
the right thing, messing up, and then endlessly worrying about it! It’s been almost a week and it’s healed up just
fine. No infection at all. Now the guilt I feel for hurting my
baby? Yeah, it’s still stickin around.
He was all smiles moments later, but I was not! |
Aw! I screw up all the time! And similarly, when Liam was 3 weeks old, I bit (because I thought my teeth were safer than the clippers? I blame post-partum brain) Liam's fingernail below the quick. He screamed, the finger bled, and Rob was SO MAD. The good thing? They won't remember it. :)
ReplyDeleteSo true! I can't imagine how hard it's going to be the first time he gets a bruise!
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