|Getting busy this morning!|
|Having fun at daycare.|
This morning when I started getting really down about leaving Carter at daycare I finally found a mindset that helped me actually enjoy my day at work. I have been telling myself I just have a few months left and that just wasn't doing it. This morning I told myself it's like how many months I was at work pregnant before Carter was born and I went on maternity leave. I want to really enjoy my last months at work. I don't want everyone to remember me as a grumpy, sad, down in spirits co-worker. I'd rather pull it together and be cheery and make the most of these last few months. It's time to really look at my students and enjoy them for who they are rather than wishing they were Carter. I know next year there will be moments I miss my students and my job. In those moments I will wish I had put my heart into my last few months and really appreciated the time for what an amazing job I have and the passion I have for what I do. I don't want my co-teacher to miss me next year, but I definitely don't want her to be relieved I'm gone because my negativity was bringing her down. I'm hoping I can get my mind right and hold onto this mindset. Giving into the sadness of missing Carter makes me miserable, makes my co-workers not enjoy being around me as much, and keeps my students from seeing the love I have for them. Here's to allowing my smile to spread past my face and voice and into my heart again tomorrow!
|I love when Carter reaches out to hold my hand, just because.|