Friday, March 20, 2015
Feeling Sappy and Pregnant
Being pregnant makes me all sappy and full of love. Don't get me wrong, I also have my moments where it fills me with anger. But most of the time I'm thinking all these sweet little thoughts and pushing back tears. So forgive my sappy pregnant posts, but if I'm pregnant for much longer I'm afraid there will be even more of them! There's something about pregnancy that really brings me closer to Ty and makes me love him even more. When I look at him I feel so much love and my heart warms at the thought of the baby we created together who is wiggling and kicking around in my stomach. I don't know if talking about pregnancy in an inclusive way makes me feel that way or if feeling that way causes me to talk more inclusively. When we talk about Elise and when we talked about Carter it was never that "I was pregnant" or "I had an appointment". It was always that "we were pregnant" and "we had an appointment". When I think of labor and delivery I always think of it as a joint effort. We will make it through the contractions, the pushing, the struggle because we are a team. Before Carter was born I wasn't scared of labor although I was a little apprehensive. I knew Ty would be with me and with him as support I knew I could do anything I put my mind to. Although Ty didn't feel the pain along with me and couldn't physically push as I pushed, his strength gave me strength. I knew that anything I needed from him as a coach he would provide. I knew he'd speak up for me and support me in any way possible. Going through natural childbirth with him by my side was an amazing experience. He held my hand, massaged my back, sat behind me to support me, breathed with me, and most importantly stood by my side.